Sinners, welcome...Pharisees, get lost! The ramblings of a female curate.
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Saturday, June 01, 2013
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Grant, my husband has just written this Christmas round robin letter: thought you may like to read it...
Well what a year of magic and wonder 2011 has been...
Tom is nearly 12 now and has continued to progress academically this year. He constantly amazes his fellow professors at Cambridge University with his intuition in the finer points of Eastern European fiscal law. He really enjoyed conducting the BBC Symphony Orchestra in the Royal Albert Hall in the summer and intends to spend this Holiday transcribing 'War and Peace' into Arabic and Cantonese.
Gill had a very busy year. In between her work as Archbishop of Greenland and Senior Partner of Apple (Europe), she introduced a line of children's novels and hand made active-wear. She remains occupied with Tom and has introduced him to Yoga and hang gliding this year which will come in useful on their expedition up Everest next summer. We are particularly proud of Mum in her role as a fly-half representing England in the Women’s Rugby World Cup.
Grant was immersed with his Graduate School studies, and managed to co-author a paper on Multidimensional Customer Attribute Analysis by Conjoint Survey and accept a Nobel Prize for his discoveries in Quantum Physics. We are proud of his work serving on the Board of Directors of IBM, Coca-Cola, and Walt Disney. Dad was also active with Tom teaching him Classical Ballet and helping to lower his golf handicap to 5.
We were able to squeeze a little travelling in this year. We started in Aspen, went to Belarus, the Congo, Denmark, Ethiopia, the Falklands, Greenland, Holland, Italy, Japan, Korea, Malaysia, New Zealand, Venezuela, and Zaire. Our trip sailing our new boat around the world was a great experience for Tom; we all learned to communicate with Dolphins and discovered a new region of deep water volcanoes which are now named after us in recognition of our services to marine science.
Whisper and Mittens, our cats, learned to speak Ancient Hebrew which will make reading the Old Testament so much more meaningful for them.
Christmas will be a particularly happy time for us as we have just heard that Grant’s mother has been given a Royal Pardon by the King of Thailand, and will be released by February. Apparently, she thought the powder the man gave her at the airport in July was icing sugar.
Other than that, it’s been a very quiet year.
So from our household to yours, all the blessings of the season and may your New Year be prosperous.
P.S. We found out yesterday that we won the Euromillions Lottery, and we didn’t even know we had entered!
Yours in great love and humility,
Grant, Gill and Tom
Well what a year of magic and wonder 2011 has been...
Tom is nearly 12 now and has continued to progress academically this year. He constantly amazes his fellow professors at Cambridge University with his intuition in the finer points of Eastern European fiscal law. He really enjoyed conducting the BBC Symphony Orchestra in the Royal Albert Hall in the summer and intends to spend this Holiday transcribing 'War and Peace' into Arabic and Cantonese.
Gill had a very busy year. In between her work as Archbishop of Greenland and Senior Partner of Apple (Europe), she introduced a line of children's novels and hand made active-wear. She remains occupied with Tom and has introduced him to Yoga and hang gliding this year which will come in useful on their expedition up Everest next summer. We are particularly proud of Mum in her role as a fly-half representing England in the Women’s Rugby World Cup.
Grant was immersed with his Graduate School studies, and managed to co-author a paper on Multidimensional Customer Attribute Analysis by Conjoint Survey and accept a Nobel Prize for his discoveries in Quantum Physics. We are proud of his work serving on the Board of Directors of IBM, Coca-Cola, and Walt Disney. Dad was also active with Tom teaching him Classical Ballet and helping to lower his golf handicap to 5.
We were able to squeeze a little travelling in this year. We started in Aspen, went to Belarus, the Congo, Denmark, Ethiopia, the Falklands, Greenland, Holland, Italy, Japan, Korea, Malaysia, New Zealand, Venezuela, and Zaire. Our trip sailing our new boat around the world was a great experience for Tom; we all learned to communicate with Dolphins and discovered a new region of deep water volcanoes which are now named after us in recognition of our services to marine science.
Whisper and Mittens, our cats, learned to speak Ancient Hebrew which will make reading the Old Testament so much more meaningful for them.
Christmas will be a particularly happy time for us as we have just heard that Grant’s mother has been given a Royal Pardon by the King of Thailand, and will be released by February. Apparently, she thought the powder the man gave her at the airport in July was icing sugar.
Other than that, it’s been a very quiet year.
So from our household to yours, all the blessings of the season and may your New Year be prosperous.
P.S. We found out yesterday that we won the Euromillions Lottery, and we didn’t even know we had entered!
Yours in great love and humility,
Grant, Gill and Tom
Monday, November 28, 2011
A walk through a local village and in to the countryside enacting the Nativity Story using drama, carols and Bible readings. We will encounter a fierce roman Soldier, see Mary and Joseph turned away from the inn and then meet three shepherds as they huddle around a meagre fire and discuss the coming of the Messiah who will change everything. We will rejoice with the Angels and marvel with the Kings as they speak of his coming. Finally we gather together in the barn to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ, the only Son of the living God.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Poppies and Crosses
The significance of the poppy as a lasting memorial symbol to the fallen was realised by the Canadian surgeon John McCrae in his poem ‘In Flanders Fields’. The poppy came to represent the incredible sacrifice made many young men of the time and quickly became a lasting memorial to those who died in war of any kind. Here are a few lines from the poem:
‘In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.
We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.’
When fighting ceased in 1918 the mud of the battlefields was allowed to rest and nature began to be restored. Before long the poppies grew over the battered earth. The colour of red reminded people of the extreme bloodshed and the sacrifice made by millions of soldiers. And so the poppy became the symbol of sacrifice.
But that poem also mentions another symbol: ‘Between the crosses, row on row’.
This refers of course to the crosses which marked the graves of the men who died, who laid down their lives for their families, friends and countrymen. But the use of a cross has a greater significance because those crosses are of course the Cross of Jesus.
One of Jesus great sayings was: ‘Greater love hath no man than this; that he lay down his life for his friends’ (John 15:13).
When Jesus died on the cross to pay the price for our sin, he did exactly that for you and for me. He laid down his life for us - his friends. Quite an amazing thought that we can call ourselves friends of the living God...
Many people have benefitted from these two great symbols of sacrifice – the Poppy and the Cross. Both brought freedom. The sacrifice which the poppy represents brought freedom to Europe from dictators such as Hitler and Mussolini. But the cross brings us an even greater freedom – a release from sin and death which brings us into a loving friendship with God.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I'm not sure that the above cartoon is really the way forward for our churches. However, I really love this passage from 1 Peter as a description of how church should be. If it was always like this, then it really would be brilliant! I am just glad that I get glimpses of this on occasion, through the actions of some very special people.
1 Peter: 4: 7b-11
Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God’s grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
It's all there: clear mindedness, prayer, love, forebearance, hospitality, gifts, service and the word of God. Peter places God firmly at the centre of it all...For me, this is church as it should be, whatever worship style we choose to wrap it up in.
Epic!!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Little Miss Busy...A week in the Life of a C of E curate.

Before I begin I need to confess that I stole this idea from a fellow curate because it was really interesting to read what filled her week last week: see here. Thanks Karen.
MONDAY: Started work about 8.30am, answered emails, phone calls and then prepared 'All Age Worship' for Sunday. Attended a wonderful women clergy lunch with our Dean of Women, Libby Lane, our Archdeacon, Michael Gilbertson and our Suffragan Bishop, Keith Sinclair. It was really useful to talk formally about the issues facing women in the church and informally with one another. I left about 3.45pm and went straight off to pick up my son from his school choir practice. In the evening I attended PCC where much was discused and some very positive decisions made.
TUESDAY: I had to travel down to London by train to attend an AWESOME committee meeting. I left at 8.30am and got into Euston around 11.30. I made my way to Pimlico where our chair, Liz has her vicarage. We had a lovely lunch together and then continued with our meeting. It was fantastic to meet with such a wonderful group of women, all evangelical theologically and all faithfully following God as ordained ministers. Much was discussed and I realised how much I really enjoy this link to the wider church and the issues under scrutiny at the moment. It is a valuable connection and one I really treasure. Got home about 10.30pm...a long but rewarding day.
WEDNESDAY: I was relieved to discover via an email that it was the Methodist Ministers turn to take communion at the local nursing home. I enjoy going in usually but had so much on this week that any extra space for preparation was very useful. I picked up a message inviting me to go and speak at the local Methodist churches fellowship meeting in November. I prepared Housegroup, phoned a few people and answered emails. I had to take our two kittens for their second set of jabs at pm and then began my sermon for Sunday evening. Took some time out when my son got in from school because in the evening I was going out again, this time to Housegroup. I don't seem to be seeing very much of my family this week; will make up for it at the weekend I hope.
THURSDAY: Presided at 10am Communion and stayed to have coffee afterwards. Then went to the Vicarage for a supervision meeting with my incumbent. In the afternoon I did some more sermon preparation, this time for the morning service and got the intercessions ready. The evening was spent at the Alpha meal where we were very pleased to welcome about 20 people. It went well and some good first introductions were made. The venue at Delamere park is proving to be a good one.
FRIDAY: Back to my previous place of work, The Grange Senior School, Hartford, to take their Harvest assembly. The powerpoint worked and it all seemed to go well. Enjoyed seeing pupils and staff again. The went to visit a member of housegroup who has had an operation to take her a card and some flowers from the group. Came home and did some more preparation for Sunday before seeing a friend for an hour. In the evening took Tom to Youth Group and stayed to do tuck shop and help out with general games etc. Then on to the local village hall for a Church organised Quiz night and fish supper. Thanks to some very clever team members (not me) we won! Phew...Fridays aren't usually this packed!
SATURDAY: I took this as a complete day off as I was supposed to have one on Monday but didn't in the end due to other committments. Was great to chill out with the family and do very little after such a busy week.
SUNDAY: Busy Sabbath!!! 9.30am - CW Communion, lead and preach. 11.15 - All Age: whole thing, 6.30pm - BCP Evening prayer: whole thing. All services went fine although we were down on numbers at 9.30am. A lot of our regulars were away I think. Had fun at the 'All Age' with the theme 'Taste and see that the Lord is good'. Nap in the afternoon, needed the recharge! Got home from the evening service about 8pm to find I had a delicious Indian take away waiting and a glass or two of wine. A lovely end to a good but busier than usual 'week in the life of this curate'.

Before I begin I need to confess that I stole this idea from a fellow curate because it was really interesting to read what filled her week last week: see here. Thanks Karen.
MONDAY: Started work about 8.30am, answered emails, phone calls and then prepared 'All Age Worship' for Sunday. Attended a wonderful women clergy lunch with our Dean of Women, Libby Lane, our Archdeacon, Michael Gilbertson and our Suffragan Bishop, Keith Sinclair. It was really useful to talk formally about the issues facing women in the church and informally with one another. I left about 3.45pm and went straight off to pick up my son from his school choir practice. In the evening I attended PCC where much was discused and some very positive decisions made.
TUESDAY: I had to travel down to London by train to attend an AWESOME committee meeting. I left at 8.30am and got into Euston around 11.30. I made my way to Pimlico where our chair, Liz has her vicarage. We had a lovely lunch together and then continued with our meeting. It was fantastic to meet with such a wonderful group of women, all evangelical theologically and all faithfully following God as ordained ministers. Much was discussed and I realised how much I really enjoy this link to the wider church and the issues under scrutiny at the moment. It is a valuable connection and one I really treasure. Got home about 10.30pm...a long but rewarding day.
WEDNESDAY: I was relieved to discover via an email that it was the Methodist Ministers turn to take communion at the local nursing home. I enjoy going in usually but had so much on this week that any extra space for preparation was very useful. I picked up a message inviting me to go and speak at the local Methodist churches fellowship meeting in November. I prepared Housegroup, phoned a few people and answered emails. I had to take our two kittens for their second set of jabs at pm and then began my sermon for Sunday evening. Took some time out when my son got in from school because in the evening I was going out again, this time to Housegroup. I don't seem to be seeing very much of my family this week; will make up for it at the weekend I hope.
THURSDAY: Presided at 10am Communion and stayed to have coffee afterwards. Then went to the Vicarage for a supervision meeting with my incumbent. In the afternoon I did some more sermon preparation, this time for the morning service and got the intercessions ready. The evening was spent at the Alpha meal where we were very pleased to welcome about 20 people. It went well and some good first introductions were made. The venue at Delamere park is proving to be a good one.
FRIDAY: Back to my previous place of work, The Grange Senior School, Hartford, to take their Harvest assembly. The powerpoint worked and it all seemed to go well. Enjoyed seeing pupils and staff again. The went to visit a member of housegroup who has had an operation to take her a card and some flowers from the group. Came home and did some more preparation for Sunday before seeing a friend for an hour. In the evening took Tom to Youth Group and stayed to do tuck shop and help out with general games etc. Then on to the local village hall for a Church organised Quiz night and fish supper. Thanks to some very clever team members (not me) we won! Phew...Fridays aren't usually this packed!
SATURDAY: I took this as a complete day off as I was supposed to have one on Monday but didn't in the end due to other committments. Was great to chill out with the family and do very little after such a busy week.
SUNDAY: Busy Sabbath!!! 9.30am - CW Communion, lead and preach. 11.15 - All Age: whole thing, 6.30pm - BCP Evening prayer: whole thing. All services went fine although we were down on numbers at 9.30am. A lot of our regulars were away I think. Had fun at the 'All Age' with the theme 'Taste and see that the Lord is good'. Nap in the afternoon, needed the recharge! Got home from the evening service about 8pm to find I had a delicious Indian take away waiting and a glass or two of wine. A lovely end to a good but busier than usual 'week in the life of this curate'.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
BURNING COALS
My husband today made what I thought was an excellent observation in the form of an analogy. We were driving back from church and he was congratulating me on my sermon (which was nice). He said that I'd got the balance exactly right between encouragement and challenge. Then came the analogy...
If the church is a pile of burning coals then to just pile more and more coals on (AKA endless encouragement in the form of platitudes) would choke it and cause it to die. If on the other hand one merely poked at the fire(AKA challenge and criticism) then it would burn itself out very quickly and also die. BUT, by feeding a fire and poking it sometimes when needed to keep it alive, the fire stays alight and has the potential to grow.
I'm going to remember that...a healthy church needs both encouragement and challenge. Too much of one and not enough of the other makes the coals go out...
Inspired! Thanks Grant!
My husband today made what I thought was an excellent observation in the form of an analogy. We were driving back from church and he was congratulating me on my sermon (which was nice). He said that I'd got the balance exactly right between encouragement and challenge. Then came the analogy...
If the church is a pile of burning coals then to just pile more and more coals on (AKA endless encouragement in the form of platitudes) would choke it and cause it to die. If on the other hand one merely poked at the fire(AKA challenge and criticism) then it would burn itself out very quickly and also die. BUT, by feeding a fire and poking it sometimes when needed to keep it alive, the fire stays alight and has the potential to grow.
I'm going to remember that...a healthy church needs both encouragement and challenge. Too much of one and not enough of the other makes the coals go out...
Inspired! Thanks Grant!
Sunday, August 07, 2011

Encouragement.
Everyone needs to be encouraged...and some people are so very good at it. I am blessed with some lovely encouragers at church, people who love me for who I am and tell me when I get it right...those who appreciate my gifts and encourage me to use them all the more. I thank God for them and pray that sometimes I can be just a little bit like them.
The Bible lists encouragement as a spiritual gift: Romans 12:6-8
'We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement. if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.'
It is up there with preaching, teaching and leading...and yet so often it is the more up front gifts whcih are celebrated and talked about. This I think is a big mistake. without the encouragers in the church many would go under, may succomb to those who sadly seem to see their mission as discouragers. It is the encouragers who keep the love of God at the forefront, who make us feel enthusiastic and apprecated, who make us want to serve.
My prayer is that encouragement would be seen as a vital ministry, an essential part of the building up of the body of Christ and a truly mighty gift which when used correctly will be a force for good in the church of God.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Tuesday, February 08, 2011

A study of the Apostle Peter
WANTED:
A solid yet imaginative leader for a disparate group of renegrades. The position: to turn them into a force for good which will shake the known world. A learned yet grounded visionary with staying power is needed for this important position who knows the mind of God and can convey it to others…prayerfully, powerfully and accurately. Applications are being received for an immediate start after Easter AD33.
At first glance….Peter wasn’t exactly a great prospect…
It could be said that his CV had some rather obvious “gaps” in it. In Acts 4 he is described as unschooled or uneducated. Consequently he was a fisherman, an ordinary every day profession, nothing special or especially religious. He was prone to break his word and make promises that he didn’t keep. When he cut off the servant’s ear in John 18:10 we see a quick temperedness - an impetuous and impulsive side to his character which showed itself at other points in the gospels. Neither could he always control his tongue, cursing those who accused him of being a follower of Jesus and lying to get out of this potentially dangerous situation. It could therefore be leveled at him that he was also showing cowardice here and when he hid away with the other disciples after Jesus arrest…
As I said, on paper it doesn’t look great…at first glance anyway…
So why was it that Jesus chose him to lead the early church, what was it about his character which made him the right man for the job?
At Pentecost following the resurrection of Christ, there was Peter—boldly preaching the first sermon with his fellow apostles. However, it didn’t stop there. The man who fled for his life when he was identified as a disciple of Jesus was the very same man who, despite the threat of imprisonment, fearlessly proclaimed that Jesus was risen to those who could easily have had him arrested.
When the counsel commanded him not to speak or teach in the name of Jesus, this once reluctant disciple replied, “Whether it is right in the sight of God to listen to you more than to God, you judge. For we cannot but speak the things which we have seen and heard” (cf. Acts 5:29).
So how can we account for this incredible transformation? How did this ordinary Galilean fisherman become a seemingly fearless and notable force for God? How did he go from catching fish to catching men? How did this uneducated man with an unsubmissive personality and an opinionated knack of putting his foot in it, become a rock-like leader—a great preacher and in every sense the dominant figure in the first twelve chapters of Acts?
Very simply, he realized who Jesus really was. He encountered the risen Christ and it was as if everything he had heard and seen and experienced over the three years of Jesus ministry fell into place.
Peter says in his own first epistle, verse 3-4:
“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade.”
A new hope, a new birth..a new start...
But the journey to great leader and preacher wasn’t an easy one. Jesus said ‘follow me’ three years earlier. Peter’s impulsive nature was a good thing on that occasion…he did exactly that…he followed him. That trust paid off, that lack of concern for the things which could have dragged him back was an advantage. It set him on the road to a new life which would be fulfilled after Jesus death and resurrection.
So what can we take from this?
1. No matter what your previous background or your present circumstances, God can use you in his service. Like St Peter, our faults can be molded and fashioned into virtues. Weakness can become strength. As Jesus himself promised, “Mustard-seed faith” can be enhanced to move mountains.
2. It takes time to become the person Jesus wants you to become. In 1 Peter 2:2 Peter talks of growing up into salvation. No one is shaped into a mature follower of Christ overnight. Peter certainly wasn’t. In fact, approximately twenty years into his ministry he still had unresolved issues around his attitudes to the Gentiles. Whenever the Jews came to visit, Peter only ate with the Jews. However, when the Jews went home, he changed his practice and ate with Gentile Christians. Eight-to-ten years later it took a vision from heaven to convince him that God, in fact, accepted all men—including Gentiles—into the faith
3. Jesus seeks a willing spirit. Peter’s problem wasn’t his lack of zeal; it was how he employed this quality that often got him into trouble. Sometimes we can see a trait in a negative light, but look at it from another angle and we see it entirely differently. Impulsiveness, outspokenness and quick temperedness when someone you love is threatened can become devotion, determination and passion when it is moulded by the Holy spirit and directed correctly. Once Peter came to terms with the concept that Jesus was risen, his fervency was channeled in a very constructive and powerful way towards leadership and the creation of the early church.
From Peter we can learn that God sees beyond what we are to what we can become. We may look at our lives and think they seem unimpressive or lacking in potential. We may see faults in our characters, or past failures, we may see a lack of understanding or admit that we have been unwilling to follow Christ when things got difficult. But Jesus looks at us and instead of our failings he sees our full potential. I wonder then, what does he see in you?
Friday, November 05, 2010

Apologies for my silence. This has been caused by the sheer busyness of life as a curate in a three parish benefice and not through lack of interest.
It is sufficient to say that I am loving my curacy and can't quite believe that I get to do this job every day. The work is varied and exciting, the people lovely and supportive and the surrounding are beautiful.
However, being a deacon is most definitely not just a 'job'; it is a calling. All of the stuff I wrestled with during discernment about 'being' and not just 'doing' is becoming clearer and is making more sense every day.
The fact is that as an Ordained person, you are there to 'be there' for people. You are there to help them to develop in their relationship with God and you are there to help them pick up the pieces when things go wrong. Sometimes it is enough to just be at an event, to show your presence. At other times we are called to celebrate and rejoice with those we meet. Sometimes it is necessary to be present prayerfully, physically and verbally at the most difficult and emotional times such as when a loved one has died. These can be both the most special times and in a way the most awkward, just because in our British culture one would normally not gate-crash into peoples lives as a stranger at such a time. This is also why it is such a privilege; to be welcomed with open arms by strangers and given the opportunity to minister to them at such a turning point in their experience.
Of course Jesus is our blueprint. He shows us how to just 'be'. That doesn't mean he didn't 'do' anything, but he was a presence, a light and a pointer to the Father and his love. Jesus was available to others...sometimes it was enough for him just to be there, at others he made the celebration even more exciting - like at the wedding in Cana. At other times he went out of his way to actively teach the people about God and at others he became involved with the most private and painful moments in the lives of those who would let him.
More and more I am aware that he is my Lord, my role model, my friend....I want to be like him. I have a long, long way to go, but I hope that I continue to love the calling he has given me, the people he has sent me to and that I can be a help to those I serve.
Sunday, August 01, 2010

I thought I'd better update my blog as the last few weeks have been very busy. I have started my curacy and am really enjoying it so far. I love the variety of what I am doing, the people I am meeting and the new challenges which are being thrown my way.
It is no secret that I love to be busy, I love to be around people socialising and having fun and also to talk about God and how he works in individuals lives. Sharing spiritual insight with others is one of the main ways in which I grow.
However, as we are now into the school summer holidays, things have gone fairly quiet. Less services, less events, less stuff to DO. Whilst I am really looking forward to the inevitable busyness that September will bring I am becoming aware that I need to use this time to connect more closely with God, to establish greater discipline in my one to one time with him and to pray for the needs of the parish...
This is what I need to Do..it is also what I need to BE...a person of prayer.
Please pray that I will be able to focus and develop spiritually over the coming months...that God will fully equip me to take on whatever he has in store.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
I love this Blog...
It has shades of some of the more fundamentalist of Adrian Plass characters and is often scarily accurate!
It has shades of some of the more fundamentalist of Adrian Plass characters and is often scarily accurate!
Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I am off on retreat tomorrow. The next time I blog I will be a Deacon...which for me is a scary yet exciting thought. I'm not going to say much more here and now, just that I would value your prayers both over the next few days and in the weeks to come. When God takes control of your life my advice is to hang on tight, because you're in for a rollercoaster ride which is like nothing else you have ever experienced before!! But the upside is...the view from the top is spectacular...
Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Less than two weeks now and I will be sporting a dog collar... The last couple of weeks have continued to be lovely with so many good wishes from friends and aquaintances. I don't think I have ever had so many parties before.. it has all been quite overwhelming. To put the icing on the cake, all those being ordained this year were invited to Lambeth Palace to mee tthe Archbishop of Canterbury. We had a wonderful, weekend of fun, friendship and thoroughly enjoyed our time at Lambeth...Some of us are pictured above in the gardens...Thanks Rowan!
A week on Thursday I go on my pre ordination retreat. We are fortunate enough to have David Runcorn as retreat leader, whose books have been used on the course and who I am told is very good. It is all very exciting.
But am I ready for this? Well; my robes are bought and hanging in the wardrobe, my course is finished and I have passed, I am assigned to a church as curate...but all of these things are outward trappings of what is actually an inner less tangible thing. Ministry is all about my strong vocation, calling and very necessary equipping by God. I need so much help to do this but I know that because He has called me to it, He will provide all I need.
The whole thing is quite unreal and rather mind blowing..Why me? I still wake up and pinch myself sometimes...
If you are reading this, please pray for me...I have come to realise that prayer will be vital to my ministry if I am to keep going, both my own prayer life and the prayers of others...So please if you have a moment pray that I will be equipped, that I will know the closeness of God and that I will be a blessing to others.
Wednesday, June 09, 2010
Well!! What a HECTIC few months it has been. I really haven't had the time or the energy to blog at all since Easter and no wonder! The end of the course with a big glut of assignments (all due at once) coincided with the end of year Drama exams and me finishing teaching for good. Immediately after all of this we were to move house - half an hour away into deepest darkest rural Cheshire.
I am pleased to say that all of these things have happened and have happened well.
The last course weekend ever was an emotional affair not least because of the lovely Valedictory service we all attended. The assignment marks were not as bad as I feared (in fact some were a pleasant surprise!)
Work were lovely both pupils and staff. Amongst other stuff, one of my Speech and Drama pupils made me a fabulous cake (see picture above)and I had a fabulous lunch out at a posh hotel with the girlies from the drama dept who made me feel very spoiled.
We have moved house and I am thrilled with the new place. The living room is enormous ans our new sofas look amazing.
All in all it has been an exciting few months and it isn't over yet. In the next three weeks I preach my final sermon at my sending church, attend a garden party at Lambeth Palace...Rowan watch out...have one leaving do and one pre ordinaton party, watch some of my friends get ordained in Manchester, go on retreat, get ordained and start my curacy...phew!
In all of this God has been faithful and his goodness and blessings have been so apparent. I am completely thankful to him and really looking forward to the next step on this exciting journey.
Sunday, March 14, 2010

CEN FRIDAY, MARCH 12, 2010 No: 6014 www.churchnewspaper.com
As a female who enjoys Bible study, academic theological debate and who responds well to a doctrinally led, reasoned approach to the bones of my faith; I was somewhat perplexed by Mr Alan Bartley’s letter, 12 March 2010. This is due to the fact that he seems under the impression that all men are rational, intellectual and level headed beings and that conversely, all women are emotional, silly and suggestible and by implication, lack sound judgement. He quotes research by an Edwin Starbuck (conducted as recently as 100 years ago); citing it as proof of his theories about women and men and the state of the church today.
“Edwin Starbuck, a student of the famous William James, noted a number of differences as to how the sexes differed in coming to faith. Among them that women tended to be “more suggestible, hence yield more readily to ordinary influences” while with men intellect [is] more prominent;”
Quite apart from the fact that this research was conducted on Edwardian women who wouldn’t have had much in the way of formal education and would therefore have had little experience, opportunity or expectation of being asked to think academically; it is also well out of date in that the men who did the research would have had a whole range of prejudices that few in this day and age would share, (mostly because they have been disproved: i.e. women brains are smaller and therefore less intelligent etc.)
In addition, Mr. Bartley states that anyone who disagrees with his suggestion that gender stereotypes are true are apparently ‘mad’.
“we would be mad to deny that the stereotypes are true of how the bulk of men and women approach life and life decisions.”
This statement is one way to stifle opposition I suppose, but hardly an intellectual one. In fact it seems to my female mind that this would seem to be a more emotive argument, based on dubious experience and opinion.
Mr. Bartley goes on to tell us that women are apparently attracted to Christianity because the church has failed to ‘argue the credibility of Christianity’; but has relied on emotional appeal not reason, which (according to Mr Bartley) is what ‘lights our candle’. As an evangelical woman about to be ordained, I know how much importance Evangelicals put on sound biblical exegesis and argument. Mr. Bartley clearly doesn’t spend much time in evangelical circles if he thinks our whole approach is experiential. Maybe the reason he hasn’t come across women of intellect is because they are not tolerated in his church? I praise God that Jesus encouraged Mary to learn at his feet, the attitude of a disciple and rabbinical trainee, that St Paul commended the teaching abilities of Priscilla and Timothy’s mother and grandmother and that Deborah led Israel and was blessed by God for her sound judgement and spiritual advice. Having said all of this, to deny the relevance of spiritual experience as Mr. Bartley seems to do, is to deny vast swathes of the biblical account. Jesus didn’t spend the whole of his ministry in the synagogue using his reason and intellect, he went out and healed the sick, raised the dead and was moved to tears by the death of a friend. He gave his friends supernatural experiences - Peter walked on water, met Elijah and Moses etc. He encouraged his followers to pray, believing that answers would come and appeared not to despise leaps of faith alongside doctrinal reasoned argument - the thief on the cross springs to mind.
Mr. Bartley seems to think that the less academic approach of the Post Modern world is down to feminisation. I have studied Post Modernism as part of my course. I was under the impression that Post Modernist thought was more down to the rejection of a Modernist reasoned hypothesis which stated that humanity would continue to improve and develop and reach an eventual utopia. This was a humanist doctrine: biblically incorrect, dangerous and against the truth of the gospel. Thus I would respectfully argue that reason can be just as damaging as emotion and can serve to promote untruth and unbelief. People have rejected it because it has been shown to be untrue in this context. If we want a balanced approach to faith then we need both reason and experience. Doctrinal understanding is essential and a good grasp of theology necessary, but so too is an appreciation of the mystery and majesty of God. The understanding that we are human and that he is so much more than we can ever fully understand. You don’t have to be a woman to grasp that, you just have to have spent some time in his company.
Friday, March 12, 2010
A Rocky Climb?

Today I am going off on our penultimate course weekend. In fact this will be the last 'normal' weekend away together as the last will be a sort of formalised farewell event. This thought has brought home to me just how close to Ordination we all are. In three and a half months all of us will no longer be Ordinands but Curates. Whilst that thought is daunting, it is still very exciting.
God has been amazingly close throughout this experience. I feel so honoured to have been called into this particular ministry; not because it is somehow 'better' or 'special', but because of the privilege that ordination gives in terms of access into peoples lives, the automatic trust they give you and the task of helping them at some of lives most significant times and events.
My thoughts on all of this are many. I hope I am up to the 'job'. I hope that I develop more wisdom, sensitivity and intuition for others. I hope that I have the strength, time management and stamina to carry on when things get tough. My faith and experience of the Lord tells me that he will equip me for all that he asks me to do and that whether I am up to things is his department not mine. I am not to worry..full stop!
Trust is a big part of this whole process. I had to trust that God called me to do this four years ago. I have had to trust that the church will discern God's will for me from the beginning of the Ordination process and into the selection of my Title Post. This trust has to continue as I step out on the next big part of the journey. I don't know what God has in store, what rocky trails there are to climb, what obstacles I will have to navigate my way over/round or through. Who knows what will be along the way? What I do know is that the view from the top will be spectacular...so thank you Lord...bring it on!
Today I am going off on our penultimate course weekend. In fact this will be the last 'normal' weekend away together as the last will be a sort of formalised farewell event. This thought has brought home to me just how close to Ordination we all are. In three and a half months all of us will no longer be Ordinands but Curates. Whilst that thought is daunting, it is still very exciting.
God has been amazingly close throughout this experience. I feel so honoured to have been called into this particular ministry; not because it is somehow 'better' or 'special', but because of the privilege that ordination gives in terms of access into peoples lives, the automatic trust they give you and the task of helping them at some of lives most significant times and events.
My thoughts on all of this are many. I hope I am up to the 'job'. I hope that I develop more wisdom, sensitivity and intuition for others. I hope that I have the strength, time management and stamina to carry on when things get tough. My faith and experience of the Lord tells me that he will equip me for all that he asks me to do and that whether I am up to things is his department not mine. I am not to worry..full stop!
Trust is a big part of this whole process. I had to trust that God called me to do this four years ago. I have had to trust that the church will discern God's will for me from the beginning of the Ordination process and into the selection of my Title Post. This trust has to continue as I step out on the next big part of the journey. I don't know what God has in store, what rocky trails there are to climb, what obstacles I will have to navigate my way over/round or through. Who knows what will be along the way? What I do know is that the view from the top will be spectacular...so thank you Lord...bring it on!
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