If you would suffer a question, I'd be very very grateful. How different do you feel now that you have made that step from long-term uncertainty about the realisation of your vocation: your dependency on the judgments of others, the expression of your feelings of a call, to now being in the position where, unless something changes, you know it will happen? I should imagine that for the first time, you aren't "what if"ing, and have to think about the practicalities and spiritual changes as a reality. How does that feel, especially as with most people, the first phase will have been happening for some years before the transition happens.
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I feel very relieved that it has come to this point but it is taking a long time to sink in. It is good to be able to say 'when' rather than 'if' and I know that the others on my BAP had been frustrated by having to say 'if' all the time. Still it's a lesson in patience so I'm told and I can see that as I look back at the process so far. So back to your question, how does it feel? It feels good, exciting, affirming and hopeful if you know what I mean. This doesn't mean that I don't feel immensely scared too on occasion and also VERY unworthy of being in this position at all.
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If you would suffer a question, I'd be very very grateful. How different do you feel now that you have made that step from long-term uncertainty about the realisation of your vocation: your dependency on the judgments of others, the expression of your feelings of a call, to now being in the position where, unless something changes, you know it will happen? I should imagine that for the first time, you aren't "what if"ing, and have to think about the practicalities and spiritual changes as a reality. How does that feel, especially as with most people, the first phase will have been happening for some years before the transition happens.
Don't feel you have to respond to this, or if you do, don't feel you have to do it publicly. My e-mail address is in my profile.
Pax,
Michael.
I feel very relieved that it has come to this point but it is taking a long time to sink in. It is good to be able to say 'when' rather than 'if' and I know that the others on my BAP had been frustrated by having to say 'if' all the time. Still it's a lesson in patience so I'm told and I can see that as I look back at the process so far. So back to your question, how does it feel? It feels good, exciting, affirming and hopeful if you know what I mean. This doesn't mean that I don't feel immensely scared too on occasion and also VERY unworthy of being in this position at all.
Thank you so much for this.
I'll not say much in response. Food, thought, and all that.
Pax,
M
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